i long to feel you

i know i need you,
i need to love you.
i love to see you, but it's been so long...
i long to feel you,
i feel this need for you.
and i need to hear you.

is that so wrong?

i hear you say, "my love is over.
it's underneath, it's inside,
it's in between.
the times you doubt me,
when you can't feel.
the times that you question, 'is this for real?'
the times you are broken,
the times that you mend.
the times that you hate me,
and the times that you bend.
well, my love is over, it's underneath.
it's inside, it's in between.
the times you're healing
and when your heart breaks.
the times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
the times you're hurting,
the times that you heal.
the times you go hungry,
and are tempted to steal.
the times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
i'm there in your sorrow,
under the weight of your shame.
i'm there through your heartache,
i'm there in the storm.
my love, i will keep you,
by my power alone.
i don't care where you fall,
where you have been.
i'll never forsake you,
my love never ends.


but i long to feel you.

is that so wrong?

i need to hear you.

an unreachable dream

what if it's all impossible?

what if this is forever?

then my hope is failing.

warrior princess

this is all from my phone because my 15" macbook pro was just ordered today. :)

Tonight i have a fever. My body is aching, my head is pounding and i can't seem to keep a constant temperature. Thus, the 3am post. A little miserable, but i'll make it through.

Since friday, i have been rushing. And tonight, i struggled with that realization because i was surrounded by sorority girls that make me remember why i was hesitant to join in the first place. I don't like being obnoxious all the time or always having my makeup perfect and i definitely don't crave alcohol. but because of all of that, i've also been reminded that this is a potential gutter. A potential place to reveal god. I don't know how or when, but i think those are details that he'll take care of, as long as i am truly searching for an answer.

I'm trying to be that warrior princess, niki.


I missed my best friends tonight. But i'm 'reaming,' so don't worry about me. :)

college.

umm.