i don't want a lot for christmas.

there is just one thing i need.

i don't care about the presents underneath the christmas tree.

i just want you for my own, more than you could ever know.

make my wish come true -

baby, all i want for christmas is you.

this is so different. and so much better. how could i ever ask for more? i have never had a happier christmas.

o, holy night...

iamloved.

what do you do when you don't have the right words to say? what do you do when all of the words you could say don't mean a thing? when you know nothing in this world could make you feel alright and you're miles away?

i'm praying for you. i just wish i could turn it all around.

and the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.

sometimes i still want to feel you. to be felt by you. but i know i am more without you.

and it's not that the options aren't there. they are. they just aren't the right ones.

i'm ready for someone that understands before it's too late. who knows who i am. who can't let it go.

"true faith is loving a person after he has hurt you. true love makes you stand out....christ commands that we give without expecting anything in return...do you give to those who cannot repay you? to those who would harm you, if they could? to those who have already done harm to you? this is christ's love."

patient.

kind.

does not envy.

does not boast.

is not proud.

is not rude.

is not self-seeking.

is not easily angered.

keeps no record of wrongs.

does not delight in evil.

rejoices with the truth.

always protects.

always trusts.

always hopes.

always perseveres.

never fails.

"and so i have come to understand that strength, inner strength, comes from receiving love as much as it comes from giving it...god's love will never change us if we don't accept it."

i'm learning to make god my refuge.

i'm learning to let him heal me.

let him guide me.

let him love me.