i don't even know where time is going, but it's slipping so far away from me.

my sister gets married in 11 days. i don't know how to handle this. i feel like when she becomes a wife, she will no longer be a sister. and i know that's not true, i know that's so silly to say, but i just feel...alone. because i'm selfish and i want her all to myself, but all to myself she is not happy. and so jarred, i will let you have her. but i hope she doesn't stop being my sister. because i need her.


what do you go home to?

i'm losing so much control of myself because i've kept together for too long.